Far Away Love

Posted: June 23, 2011 in Boy meets Girl

Good morning everyone! Today is the third post from my third guest writer. Her name is Coco and you guys probably know her as @CeceNoStockings on twitter. She’s a really good friend of mine and I hope you all enjoy her piece.

I think I love him. Okay. Maybe not ‘love’, but something pretty close. I’ve never actually met him, but that doesn’t matter. Right? I mean, it shouldn’t. Should it?

I met him online a while back. I think we hit it off immediately. He was funny, and charming, and witty and…*sigh*. Waiting up everyday for him to come online (Time difference: 6hrs). Staying up all night chatting, even though I had morning classes. Although it was a purely a physical thing at first, we’ve somehow ended up where we are now.

Where are we? I don’t know.

It’s been years. I’ve grown closer to him. I can tell him anything and everything. And he does the same, even though I make it difficult sometimes. I’m happiest when we’re chatting. He says he hates when I’m sad. It’s not just physical anymore. He says he wants all of me. He’s mine. He wants to make me happy.

I don’t know.

Can we really be in love? Like I said, we’ve never actually met. But what I feel for him is deeper than anything I’ve felt for anyone. We’ve had fights (mostly my fault), and we’ve made up. Even when I did something really horrible and irrational, he was my rock. I’ve grown to believe I need him.

We’re supposed to finally meet this year. In a couple of months. I’m at a difficult place now. I’ve made some bad decisions. But he’s accepted them. He looks past the problem, but I’m stuck on it. I don’t know if I can be with him because of it. But I really want to. I do. With all my being.

I’m scared he won’t accept me, even though he says he does. I’m scared it won’t be okay, even though he says it will. I’m scared because I don’t want to lose him, even though he says he’s mine.

I’m scared because I love him. Because I really do.

Internet love. What do you all think about it? Can you be in a relationship with someone you have never seen before? Does it ever work out? Leave comments on the issue.
Coco has a blog which you all know but if this is your first time, feel free and head there. She’s a great writer!
I haven’t been posting original stuff because I’ve been dealing with serious writer’s block. I hope by Monday, I’ll have something original on the blog.
Watch out for my memoirs. I’ll be writing about my experiences as an intern at an advertising agency in Lagos. I’m excited about my new job!!
Enough talking! Have a great weekend everyone! :*

  1. ibetapassmynebo says:

    Aww ny cece……we meet people we end up loving from strange places….we cud find luv anywhere anytime anyhow any which way

    Don’t be scared…follow ur heart…u wud be fine!

  2. awizii says:

    Internet love? Maybe, maybe not. Many times it’s probably some kinda fantasy that eventually fades when one finally meets the person or….simply makes it stronger I guess.

  3. SlevinCalevra says:

    In my opinion,the internet isn’t enough of a platform to know if you truly love someone. There’s nothing bad about meeting someone on the internet but loving them? I think that’s naiveté at play. All that glitters ain’t gold.
    Nice write up Cece. Deola (y). Writers block will go. Just keep at it.

  4. Pha't says:

    Internet love…..hmmmmm….. I’ve been there b4, and at first its all sweet and nice but it falls apart just as quick. But maybe its just me sha, I mean People are different yh?? Goodluck with it Coco. 🙂

  5. highlandblue says:

    Lol. Is this a true story? Cos I’m in love with someone I’ve never met. Oh dear!

  6. terdoh says:

    It’s not love until I cut cake. *straightface* I still don’t think Love exists sha…Ben Franklin would agree. 🙂

  7. u_ezimah says:

    The internet is a nice medium to make friends ok,but when it comes to delicate situations like relationships it may be tricky, people can put up performances for months,sometimes his/her face,sense of humor,mutual passion may not be enough. But be hopeful it may just be the right thing.

  8. @Pha’t sister you’re right on track!

  9. @hueyblack says:

    Internet love? I dont think so! It does happen though and it might be true. But again, the internet!? ….. Well, it all boils down to you o. Me? I aint trusting no lady i met on the net. They all turn out to be mosquitoes(no pun intended). Anyways, nice post cece and i love ur name…. Cecenostockings! Lol

  10. missbeemuse says:

    Nice piece cece! Love? I’m not so sure. I had a ‘crush’ on someone I met on facebook & it led to phone conversations but we never met. The feelings were present but love? Errrm…no. Nice one sha.

  11. Hmm. I feel u Cece. If this is a true story then you’re not alone. Cos I’m also in love with a guy I’ve never met. About being scared, you’d be shocked to find out how much this person knows about you. So just stay calm. Be open with this person. If he doesn’t accept you then you guys were probably not made for each other. I agree with John Mason ” My best friends are those who understand my past, believe in my future and accept me today just the way I am” . And really, proximity is an important ingredient for successful relationships but never a guarantee. Like me, I’ve surrendered it to God. I’m work in progress. I look forward to seeing my love. But I ain’t gonna worry my head about anything. Loving him feels so right. And thats what you should keep doing. Enjoy your time together. And you’re gonna be surprised when u find out u had no reason to worry. Believe it’s gonna be OK, and it will be. *Goodluck*

  12. awizii says:

    yo d3ola keep this up.. lovely artwork you got going on..and writers block will definitely pass. It’s a phase..I guess that I still try to write something regardless ‘cos the thought of not putting anything down scares me..but I like the fact that there are guest appearances on here..adds spice to your blog and also helps you learn..I love it. I do.

  13. i_rep_mars says:

    Really nice expression of emotion. I’ve also had my share of internet ‘Love’. In the end, without a physical presence, it really doesn’t mean much, in my opinion

  14. I guess my understanding of love is different. I don’t think d internet is enuf for me to fall in love wit someone…cos too much can be faked. I’d even prefer a phone call cos then I can hear the person. But nothing beats face to face mehn…
    Good stuff Deola…n like Awizii said, d block will thaw out eventually (pun intended).

  15. anonymous says:

    i have a friend who got his wife from the internet…. it cud be possible……

  16. *smh* I can like to carry last sha 😦 . Been meaning to come on here and drop my own comment since. At the time this was put up, I was indisposed.

    I wish I had something lengthy/insightful to say, but I don’t. You know? When my feelings are involved, I usually just let them speak for themselves. And they have in the post.

    All your opinions and advice are very much appreciated. 😀 Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. Those experiencing the same thing I am, I wish you the best of luck as well.

    Peace, love and happiness to everyone!

  17. […] I was feeling all emotional and shit. Then, decided against it. I already did all that drama on a post I did on @d3ola’s blog. Feel free to go read it there, if you haven’t […]

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